Disclaimer: I am 100% a JC girl. Short story long that means I believe that Jesus is God’s son and that He died for our sins. That said, I’m not trying to convert anyone, especially you. Faith doesn’t work that way and I’m not interested in making all of us uncomfortable by trying. Besides, who has that kind of time?
Sinners’ Club is simply a place where people who believe in Jesus share the stories about how that belief changed their lives. Because when God changes a life, really changes a life, the person who lives it can never be the same.
It’s also a place to ask questions. Even after a lifetime of believing I’ve never stopped asking God questions. I may not have the answers you’re looking for, but I’m always up for a discussion.
I’ve been a Christian since I was little. In honest terms this means that I loved God as a child, questioned Him as an adolescent, and turned my back on Him as a teenager. I made such a mess out of my life during that time that when people who knew me then see me now, they’re often surprised I’m still alive.
I figured that since I “asked Jesus into my heart” I was “in,” so I could do whatever I wanted as long as I prayed for forgiveness when I was done. And every time I came down from a high I did just that. But I felt an emptiness that I couldn’t fill no matter what I tried to fill it with. And then one night God opened my eyes to what I was doing with my life. He also showed me that even when I was at my worst, He never left me.
I dropped to my knees and repented. I knew it would be a tough road back and that I’d have to face the consequences for all of my actions, but I wouldn’t have to face them alone. Not to say that I haven’t made messes since. Much of what I write in this blog is me sorting through the mess I’m trying not to make out of my kids. But I trust God to direct my life and the lives of my children. And the peace that comes from His undeserved love and forgiveness is unparalleled.